Ethanforshort (:

I hate how things go for me.. Life is so inconsistent with feelings its so improbable that i just wish i could breakdown and cry… I regret.. And regret, and continuously gain symptoms that lead to bipolarism.. Life just prospers and continues on , why the fuck can i not get over you? Why cant you just leave my chest? Why do you make things hard for me? I fucking hate you for doing this to me, for treating me the way you did.. For torturing me till this day, 7 months, and im still lingering feelings, i hate you, and i love you.. But i wish i never met you, because if i knew you would have fucked me over this badly, then i wouldnt even try, ive given you so many things, i was there when your family wasnt, i was there when your bestfriends werent, i was always there, i never let you down, and deep down, it leads to one of those regrets, what if i treated you like shit? What if i fuxked you over? Wouldyou have stayed then? Is that what he does to you? Is that the reason why youre staying with him? Nd not me ? Id love to say my goodbyes, and just leave.. But you left something behind.. And ill never be able to let go… No matter what… So fuck you..